Honestly, all I've really been able to think about here is Russian and the work. It takes up every thought in my mind and every place in my heart. My family and friends and the experiences I've had are a part of that work., obviously., but I think of nothing else. I'm already starting to lose myself in the work and it's the best think I have ever done. It is one of the most important things I will ever do, but nothing else I will ever do will be more important -- Elder Holland said so -- I believe it with my whole being.
If anyone was to witness even a glimpse of what I have seen or feel an ounce of what I have felt in these past five days their lives would be changed forever, as has mine. I am humbled that I, out of all that have ever lived, was set apart to labor in this glorious work, which is a work of love. And I know that whoever you are, missionary or not, if you give your whole self to the Lord, He will show you miracles and bless your life much more than you can ever imagine.
I was in a mission conference listening and i realized that I was having a hard time believing that people could really, truly change. How can I go on a mission, to Russia of all places, where everyone drinks and porn is everywhere? How could I teach people the Atonement when my faith in it was not complete? I wrote this question down, pleading with the Lord to help me. The next talk was my answer. Pres Brown (the MTC pres) gave a wonderful sermon about the fulness and completeness of the Atonement. It pierced my heart, even so much that it changed me.
I have a greater faith, even that I know that the Atonement is real. That anyone can change. All they have to do is rely on the Savior. I know that is real now. It is real for me. It is real for you. And nothing we could ever do would or could be too bad or go too deep.
The Atonement, Christ's sacrifice for us, is more powerful than any sin. I pray that you can have faith, courage and wisdom as you press forward in your missions. Give your whole self to the Lord; give your whole life to the Lord and He will make it whole.
Love,
CeCTPA Johnson
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Sister Johnson, :) I love your blog and this post! Especially that missionary work is "...is a work of love."
ReplyDeleteMay the Lord's choicest blessings be with you along the journey! Enjoy each moment, you will have your entire life to reflect on the short 18 months you labored in the vineyard. Make 'em count. :) Much love!
This is so wonderful Kim!! You are in my thoughts and prayers.
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