Monday, December 30, 2013

December 30th 2013


Happy New Year! 

Christmas was fantastic and it was so precious to talk to you all! I really treasured that time and it kinda restored and refreshed me to head into the last third of my mission. Afterward I just felt so completed and ready. I have a feeling the long stretch is over and it's all going to go super fast from here on out. So I'm going to kick it into an even higher gear and wear out every minute of it! As dad said, this work really does bring me the greatest joy!! & it's fun! :) I hope I don't emphasis too much on the hard parts of the mission. It really is a ton of good times and laughter! In fact, I frequently ask for a joke from my companion or from members and in our district meeting it's always written into our district leaders agenda to have a daily joke. It's important not to take life too seriously cause that just makes hard things harder. Also, it's easier to serve those around you when a smile is on your face and in your heart. Any emotion is contagious, but especially happiness.
After our skyping session we headed out to Saratov for a special Christmas zone conference which = regular conference+ delicious Christmas dinner made by Sister Schwab personally+ the First Presidency Christmas broadcast! It was pretty great! Focused all on the Savior and the same old concecrated missionary jazz this mission's super hot about. THIS mission is teaching me how to keep my temple covenants. Yes, I may be far from the temple and yeah, it's been a while since I've been through a session but here the temple is being internalized inside of me. One of those quality versus quantity things. I wish the quantity was up with with out quality, quantity means a lot less. 
We have seen some progress in our area. Since that one new investigator on my birthday we have found 7 more. Pretty much a miracle. And we had my first lesson with someone from the street since I was in Samara this past week. Also, in the elders area a couple who had their names removed from the church have expressed a desire to get baptized and came to church yesterday. 
Things are about to get crazy in Balakova! :) 
Oh and remember Dachney?? My beloved Dachney? You would be pleased to hear that Tamara, our only investigator there and mother of my favorite member was baptized on Saturday, December 28, 2013!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was so elated, sad I can't be there but my good friend Elder Wall promised me pictures. :) 
Hard work and faithfullness really does reap blessings, even when you don't see them. That's why we must always have faith in God and His promises. That's something I must admit I have doubted from time to time in my hardest moments, but you know, it really is true. And how much hope can we find in that?

I wanted to tell you more about the fun I've had talking with people on the street but I'll just keep it short and say that it's been the week of philisophical men. One of which was in Saratov. We got to work in the sisters area in the middle of the city. Everyone was being ridiculously nice to us and then this guy says "hey, tell me something." I kinda rolled my eyes, thinking 'I know this type. They don't really want to listen.' But he actually did want to listen and it turned out I made a good friend! :) Sasha, who knows english, has traveled all around europe & chatted with me about self perfection/progression, evolution, and eventually, with skill of conversation navigation, the Restoration. He's the typical beefy russian with a surfer/hippie mentality and childlike heart. We also ended up looking for a lost hairless dog that he worried about getting out of the cold... oh the adventures!! 

Okay so now I'm forfeiting time to write personal letters to explain the package a bit more, I don't feel like I got the chance. I did write little notes on more things to explain but from in the hassle of sending it, they got lost. (the postal worker ended up emptying and refilling the box multiple times... don't wanna talk about it. ;) I really do hope you enjoyed it. It was the best I could do in order to get everyone in the family a little something. & the chips were a last mintute thing to fill the rest of the box in a light weight, cheep, tasty way. The extra sock and stuff can go to anyone who wants it, and each grandma should get one of the scarves and one of the hanky things. You are free to swith socks or whatever if you want. & I plan on getting you guys other things before I go. But I dont know what you want and i don't want to spend money on something you don't want. SO each of you needs to think of something. I will send a list of options later if you cant think of something now.

Love youuuuuuu!!!!!!!!1
Sister Johnson

Monday, December 23, 2013

December 23, 2013


Hey! Christmas is coming! It's Christmas eve eve, that is, on this side of the globe. You are all still enjoying the last few minutes of your sabbath. Thanks to my companions two Christmas packages full of dollar-store decorations and festivities and a few hours of glueing on sparkles after planning, our apartment is fully festive and ready for the holidays!! We may even pick up a little yolka (Christmas tree/pine tree) from one of the many dealers on the streets of Balakova. Yesterday as I ate boiled water for tea I watched a young couple pull their tree along on a wooden sled with metal runners in the snow with their little son trailing along. It was the quaintest, classic winter scene. 
We're still on for 9:30ish on your Christmas eve. :) I will be at Sveta's house using the same computer she uses to skype her muslim man friend in Franch ;) she's so funny, you'll love her.
As a little Christmas present I have been informed that Tamara Golybev is still on date for baptism this coming saturday!!! Too bad I won't be in Dachney to see it but I'll convince Elder Wall to get me some pictures. 
There's really not a whole lot other than that to report on this week... OH! we got our General Conference Liahonas!!!!!!!!!!! You know I may sound silly but it's kinda a big deal! that thing is priceless. Imagine not hearing the gospel in your native tongue for a year. It's not the same. It is the same, but it's not. We have lots of scripture study in our own language, but I really miss that weekly nourishment at church. So General Conference is just that more precious. At least that's my theory. & I laughed to myself as I read the opening talk by President Monson when he rejoiced in how  because of technology "we don't have to wait months for the mail" to receive Conference! Wrong! Okay, maybe I'm being a whiner. It in all reality, really came at the right time for me. All of the talks have just been so intimately applicable to me and to Balakova. It's strengthened my relationship with Heavenly Father to remember how aware of me He is. & it also strengthened my testimony of modern prophets. How amazing is it that they receive revelation for me in my remote and personal circumstance! and for us all!
Yep, that's all I got today. Sorry. 
Oh, and we have a mini missionary in Balakova now. Elder Myers went home to get surgery and so they pulled in a young man from Saratov to serve until he returns. He literally got the call, dropped everything and left that same day. What a jaw-dropping example. Members in Russia know how to sacrifice. He also is a new member of less than a year and is the ward mission leader in their branch of 60 in Saratov with 6 missionaries. I'm not sure what that branch is going to do without him. & he's going to miss the holidays.
I'll SEE YOU in 2 days!!!!!!

love & holiday greetings!!! 
Sister Johnson

ps.  I have realized that I feel very deeply, especially feelings of love and loyalty and a bit of nervousness with that deep attachment with the fear that it's not reciprocated. That is exactly where I am with Russians, and specifically with Balakova. I love them so much. Not like a fluffy, happy kind of love but a love that's rooted so deeply within that it drives you, almost becomes obsessive, and fiercely loyal.

Monday, December 16, 2013

December 16th 2013

It's been another good week although we were in Saratov (Yay, Saratov!!!) for an exchange so we weren't able to be in our area. Exchanges are always a great opportunity for us to learn from our great examples & friends--Sister Clyde and Hancock, and to get boosted up for this new cycle. We set a lot of good, specific cycle goals to give us vision, motivation and direction to work towards.
There are many obstacles that I have confronted recently especially. It's funny. It makes me laugh because I see how desperate Satan is getting. And he doesn't realize that every temptation he puts in front of me only gives me the chance to overcome it and become even stronger. That's not going without saying that I haven't struggled. At one point yesterday I was about to call President because I felt that stuck. And it feels like no matter what I do I keep hitting emotional walls of just not knowing if I can do it any longer, not knowing if I have the strength to keep going, to go out the door once more. But as I held the phone I said a little prayer and heard a comforting voice say, yes, you can. All I needed to do is take that step forward, to open my mouth and everything would be okay. In fact everything is fantastic. That night we knocked on the door of the most precious, prepared soul and taught him the Restoration. And that's the best joy there is. Honestly, it's my substitute for a temple experience, that's how sacred. I am so blessed. We have been so blessed. Three nights this week we have been let in while knocking. (maybe because of the cold?? :) ) It's an almost Christmas miracle! :)
Christmas is coming! I will be able to skype at 9.30 pm your time on Christmas eve. I hope that's convenient for you! I would earlier but my comps family is in Texas and they are two hours later than you... so looks like we're going second. Who will all be there? everyone. You can also invite the grandparents if they want to.
Winter in Russia is like a storybook fairy tale! Parents and grandparents in fur coats and hats pulling puffy children on old school wood and metal sleds, children having snowball fights and making snow men, icicles, hot cocoa and tea... it's just amazing! :)
That's all for today since I'm sending pictures!! :)
I just want to say that I love my Savior. We received the December Liahona this week and I took time to admire the painting on the cover. The innocent baby Jesus with His beautiful mother Mary gazing down at His tiny hand with such soft, preciously pure baby skin. I wonder if she knows that one day those that hand would heal the sick and wounded, would calm seas and eventually be pierced through with a nail, holding her Son to the cross. I never really understood why people's first reaction when they meet the Savior is to fall at his feet and bathe His feet with tears. Wouldn't you just want to hug Him, to look into His eyes and to talk with Him? But now I understand and just the thought of Him, of His sacrifice, seizes my whole self and makes me want to weep. And I wept as I read the article by Elder Porter. It was so beautiful. I invite you all to read it. Also, the talk by Elder Holland is basically what he spoke to us about when I was at the MTC. Exciting stuff! :)
Love you all soooooooooo much! more than hot cocoa with marshmallows.... and that's a lot... ;)
Sister Johnson


I usually wait until Sunday evening to type my weekly letter so that I can have the benefit of the full week before I write. I am currently in Ulyanovsk and have been here for two days. Before I left, I printed out numerous examples of your miracles which I wanted to share and unfortunately, they are still sitting safely on my desk in Samara! So, please know that there were amazing miracles, as always, which occurred in our mission, but I will be unable to include them in this letter. That may make next week's letter a little longer, but that will be great! We need to all be so grateful for the wonderful miracles that the Lord has blessed us with and will continue to bless our mission with as we are worthy of them.

Several of you have asked about calls to parents on Christmas day. As you know, the Handbook says that such calls should be kept to 30-40 minutes. As a mission, our calls this year will be 40 minutes long. Please show your obedience with exactness to the Handbook by strictly keeping that rule.

For those of you who have parents in the U.S., there is an 11 hour time difference (Mountain Standard Time). Therefore, if you want to talk to them on their Christmas morning, you will need to call on our Christmas evening. If you want to talk to them on their Christmas evening, you will need to call on our morning of December 26th. For those of you with parents in other countries, you will need to call when it is most convenient for you and for them. However, many of you will be involved in the Saratov Christmas Zone Conference on the 26th, so plan accordingly. Most of you will be making calls from members' homes, so please be sensitive and respectful of their time and needs. We are not authorized to make calls outside of the regular "awake hours" set forth in Preach my Gospel.

I would suggest that you let your families know in either this week's or next week's email when you will be calling so that they are expecting your call and don't waste time gathering family members after you have called. If parents are divorced, please call me about how we would suggest your time be divided. If you have a sibling on a mission in another part of the world and you desire to call him or her, please call me so that we can discuss the rules applicable to that. Make this a great event that is not a distraction to the work, but rather a blessing and an uplifting event for both you and your family. They have sacrificed much to have you on your mission, so let them know how much you appreciate them. Let them know about your love for them and the Savior, and the great privilege it is to be doing His work.

We will be having our Christmas zone conferences on December 24th (Toliatti and Samara) and 26th (Saratov). These will be sacred and special events, and we are looking forward to seeing all of you at those conferences. Please come to those conferences with a prayerful heart and an open mind so that the Lord will bless you and all of us with a wonderful experience.

Last week, I spoke briefly about the Lord's clear direction that we need to work harder as a mission. Thank you so much for the great support and commitment that so many of you have expressed about that in this week's letters. We will talk about this in more detail in our zone conferences, and I look forward to hearing your thoughts and experiences about this important principle. Please be prayerfully considering what we can each do to consistently work harder. I know that great blessings await us as we do so.

Allow me to share a profound observation from one of you this past week:

"I've been thinking a lot in the last couple of days about Faith and Love and Obedience and Work. It seems to me like the first two prepare us for the last two. It's not a coincidence that they are in that order. Our ultimate sacrifice is obedience and work. We have to literally put 100% of all we have in--that's true work and true obedience. So FLOW seems like it prepares us to make 'as great a sacrifice as did Abraham.' It finally clicked for me, and I understand it. Then I was thinking about how you said that if every missionary did the things on the last page of PMG, it would be a sacrifice sufficient for the Lord. I read through those--and recommitted to do my best in the new area, new branch, and with my companion to do every one of those 22 items."

We will talk much more about the principle of consecration in the zone conferences, but I end with this statement by Elder Neal A. Maxwell:

"'It was all made possible by the Savior's splendid submissiveness. He did voluntarily what He was not forced to do . . . 'Yea, even so he shall be led, crucified, and slain, the flesh becoming subject even unto death, the will of the Son being swallowed up in the will of the Father.' (Mosiah 15:7). Jesus was totally, perfectly, and fully consecrated. Being 'swallowed up' means being totally enveloped--without question, protest, reservation, or resentment. It is 'all the way,' not halfway. Choosing such spiritual submission is the highest act of deliberate, individual will . . . furthermore, when we are 'swallowed up' in His will we will also know what it is like to be 'swallowed up in the joy of Christ' (Alma 31:38)."

Sisters and Elders, may we each become fully consecrated missionaries, working hard and allowing our will to be "swallowed up in the will of the Father." What amazing blessings, including being "swallowed up in the joy of Christ," await us as we do so! You are all wonderful servants of the Lord, and you will be blessed as you exercise faith in Christ, love, obey with exactness, and work with unwearyingness.

We love you all and pray for you.
President and Sister Schwab






















Tuesday, December 10, 2013

Decmeber 10th 2013

God loves me. He gave me the best mission birthday ever. :) 
It started out fraught with frustration in a hot kitchen while I half burned and spilled the lemon bars mom sent me in my christmas package all over the oven. (They worked out in the end &were super delicious by the way... well the middle non-burned part:) ) Then we had weekly planning set to the background of a constant fall of light snow with random spurts of huge heavy flakes displayed outside our window. (First snow!!! that sticked!) Then we had a chocolate cake we grabbed from the store nearby with a candle that sings a super high pitched, annoyingly funny rendition of "happy birthday" and my dear Sister Sveta called with a long stream of birthday wishes (Russians can go on for minutes of wishing health, happiness, love, fulfilled dreams, riches, great posterity.. etc, etc, etc.) It was amazing. Sveta is such an amazing woman. She's so sick.. some sort of condition with her stomach which makes her unable to eat very much and she has to take lots of medication, but she still comes out with us, loves us, and remembered my birthday. :) That evening we were to work with Sister Kazak. Her feet are hurt somehow so it hurts to walk, but she was determined to "take her turn with the missionaries." I love her example, the faith and zeal but I felt pressured to have a meeting set up for the evening so that she wouldn't have to walk in the cold for three hours. Thing is we didn't have anyone to meet with. So she's calling us, and our branch mission leader is calling us asking us what kind of plans we have and we've got nothing, having tried our hardest. Then she calls us back a bit later and she says, "I've got someone who will let us come over, my sister-in-law. But she said we can only stay for a bit." I'll make the story shorter and just say that it was the most glorious, Spirit-guided, love filled Restoration lesson I have had the opportunity to teach on my mission. It was wonderful. Such a sacred time. And although there are a few things I can think of that we could have done better, it was pretty much by the book and by the Spirit. Just perfect, and I know that it was all because of the faith of Brother and Sister Kazak who have tirelessly tried to share the gospel with her and invited her to come to church and read the Book of Mormon. We were just privileged to be there when she finally open her doors to the missionaries for the first time. And she liked us. :) Sister Kazak said many times and was very excited that Natalia (her sister-in-law) liked us. haha :) And Natalia accepted our invitation to be baptized when she knows it is true, which means she's open! and invited us back over to teach her the Plan of Salvation. My no new investigator streak of 4 months finally ended in the best way.
There are many other things to say.... Ah! The weather is great, we have lots of snow but it's not too cold. :) bad timing for the card though because I planned on buying new boots today and have run out of personal money.... umm I'll figure something out. :) My comp and I are so excited for Christmas!!! Sister Scott had a little shrinky dink christmas tree that we made little ornaments for. it was so fun! :)
Love you & talk to you soon! 
Also, transfer calls came and I'll be in Balakova for 2 more months. A|& I will skype

Monday, December 2, 2013

December 2nd 2013

Thanks for the birthday wishes :) it should be a good one. There's a member that helped us last night who has the same birthday so we'll probably do something special for her too:) Sounds like Thanksgiving was fun! We had a thanksgiving activity on saturday and it was pretty successful and fun!
So all that happened in the split was 2 ward right? The College placers just left and that's all who was moved right? I'm sure that would be hard. Who's the college place bishop? 
I can't watch the video since I'm not supposed to use any other site except email. Thanks though! :)
Say hey to G-ma G for me! 
Love you! Sorry I did more individual emails this week so I didn't have time to write a big one. 
Have a great week!

November 25th 2013

Just imagine me-- I've got my boots, hat, puffy coat and big, puffy fur collar, tramping through the dimly lit streets of Balakova with my trainee on my right (who has little to no idea what's going on) and a member on my left running Russian at me with barely room to breath. I'm processing 50-75% of what's being said and managing to reply in a coherent, satisfying way, while making sure my companions up to speed and that we're stopping and talking to everyone on the street and are relating to and connecting with those we drop by.  Juggling this and all the other little responsibilities and things to remember filling my mind have basically been the content of my week. It's been so crazy just trying to keep up with it all but it's also been a very fulfilling week brimming with sweet moments.
I think the greatest blessing God has ever given me is the people in my life.
That's a lesson I've continued to learn time and time again, that no matter where I am and what I'm doing, I will find the greatest beauty and richness in being a part of the lives of and in looking into the hearts of my fellow eternal travelers, my brothers and sisters. This is what working with the members has done for me personally on my mission. Within the past week and a half I have learned more about the members and this branch than I have any other. That has been a great blessing. Not only will I treasure these relationships forever, but it will help me to know how to better help the branch grow. At least thats the theory.
I'm always brought back to the family though. You are the most important. & you are definitely the biggest and most significant of all blessings. Yesterday, with our new member катя in Sunday school женя (branch mission leader) taught a great lesson about prayer. He got to family prayer and asked me to share my experience with family prayer. They watched and listened intently as I described us all kneeling together after studying the scriptures and then hugging each other before we went off to bed --a scene so familiar to me but so foreign to them. I began my account lightly, as it was something I considered common but as I looked into their eyes, I realized that this was in fact nothing common at all. When I finished there was a hushed reverence and the air was thick with the Spirit. женя asks, "how many are there in your family?"   "Eight." More silence. Do you realize how many families there are like us? If there are any in Russia, you could probably count them on your hand.
I'm sorry I can't write more today. I wish Emily and Teresa a HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!! and I hope thanksgiving is great. I will be spending it with my Russian family--the Balakova branch, which truly has become close to me.
with uncontainable & absolute adoration and love,
Sister Johnson

November 18th 2013

This week has been pretty darn crazy!!! But the good kind! Like I've said before, we have an amazing branch missionary leader and this week he stepped it up even more. We are in constant contact with him every day as he has correlates our work with members every evening as well as meetings with in/less active and active members. It also is very helpful that the members are willing to help. In Relief Society yesterday the branch president asked who would come out with us and we ended up filling our week as they all shouted out what days they were available. It was such a beautiful moment!--me scrambling to fill my planner full of member help. And as we have worked with them all of the promises President has given us have been fulfilled . Our branch mission leader expressed that he feels like there is more love in his home (he lives with his nonmember parents) and I personally have felt less fear and have seen an increase in the effectiveness of our work. One particularly exciting example: a family who has been inactive with no contact for over six years has recently experienced a trial that has softened their hearts.  A member had an impression to stop by their home. They now have a desire to come to church! Their son is not yet baptized. They seem like a really awesome family and I'm praying for them so hard! AH!!

This movement in our branch was inspired by this past District Conference in Saratov. President Schwab asked, pleaded for members to be out with the missionaries every evening from 6-9 to be our little body guards. As a sister we don't get touched but for the elders it's a bit of a different story. (Plus, Balakova's pretty safe, so please don't worry mom... man I miss Saratov) Um but this has really motivated the members, so whatever works! :) They're so cute telling us where not to walk in the dark and yelling at us to get out of the way of cars. 
So you see that Heavenly Father is in control, everything is in His hands. He knows what's going to happen in the government, how people are going to react and He uses even those things to further, expedite, His work. And this truly is an exciting time. Think about it. As my branch mission leader pointed out to us, the age of missionaries can't really go any lower. This is the last time the prophet can make a wave, a bubble of missionaries. What does that mean about missionary work right now? And specifically in my mission, we are also experiencing a wave of sorts, a hastening, a push. And even more specifically in the Saratov zone we are about to (finally) reach a stake. A stake! the third in Russia. President Bennett said that his best guess is that Russia will get a temple when there are four stakes. How close does that mean that we are to a temple? Within a few years I pray! I remember my first cycle and that's all I wanted, to help these people get to the temple. And now I get to do my part and it's closer that I ever dreamed! And it's not just significant for me but for everyone because once there's a temple here, it's just going to explode from there. Russia really is the next Brazil, a key in the fulfilling of times as Joseph Smith prophesied.
I know, I'm crazy. And I probably repeat myself a lot. But at least you know that I love being a part of this great work.
Sister Johnson
PS wow that's so cool that we have another ward!!! So would that be the 4th ward? lol weird!

November 11th 2013

Hey! So I've got lots to catch up on since I didn't really write last week. It's been kinda a crazy weekend escpecially since we got our transfer call on Wednesday! I'm staying in Balakova with a new comp and Sister Sigman is going north to Kazan. And we had a zone conference this weekend so we left Balakova Thursday up to Saratov!!! :))) Then had exchanges and a Saratov District conference with President Bennett and now I'm in Samara to pick up my companion. Whew! and I don't get back to Balakova until Wednesday. But to be honest I could have stayed in Saratov forever. If President Shwaub asked me to serve the rest of my mission in Dachney (or anywhere in Saratov) I would be the happiest sister alive. I don't know what it is about that place. I always heard missionaries talk about Saratov when I served here in Samara and I always wondered... what's so great about that place??... and then I was called there and served one beautiful cycle that I'll always remember. Saratov just has this gritty-ness, a character and richness that is so real and... Russian. Ahh.. I just love it sooooo much. It broke my heart to pass through on the bus, just reminiscing, knowing that I'll probably never be back to stay. But I got to see everyone at the District Conference on Sunday. It was like coming home, so many smiles, hugs, laughing and tears. The best was seeing the Golybev family-- Dima, Tamara and Lena. I don't know if I told you about them, but I think they are some of my favorite members/people. We taught Tamara, Dima's mom who now has a baptismal date at the end of December. She told me that she's still not super sure about it, she seemed a little scared, but I assured her that everything will work out. I hope it does. I love her so much. I sat next to them and got to spend quality time with Lena, Dima's daughter who is about seven. Sad thing is that I didn't get a picture. It was just so good to be there, I can't even say how much, and I can't even think about anything else so sorry if this letter is kinda sappy. I just felt so alive. :)
I LOVE this country, I love this people, I love this language, I love my mission, the mission president, all the faithful elders and sisters, all the miraculous members. It's just perfect and I'm so, so grateful to my Heavenly Father. 
Okay, so I thought I had a lot to say but now all I can think about is Saratov... 
congrats on the new dryer, I forgot those existed. Here on the mission we have something call "air" that dries our clothes.
Congrats to those in our stake called to Russia. I hope they love it as much as I do. Sounds like she was called to the Rostov mission which has the Olympics soon in Sochi. That's where everyone in my mission goes on vacation. (Well, there and Egypt.) So I hear it's beautiful down there! :) Let them know that they can email me if they have any questions!! :) Also one thing I thought of this weekend while traveling is that I wish my carry on was something a little more portable, like a duffel bag is really nice for visa trips and transfers, etc. 
Also, whatever the government is doing, the Russians don't like it... usually people think it's cool that I'm American but lately they've had different reactions... and I keep hearing political stuff I don't know about.
I love you family! you don't know how much you help carry me through. Sometimes when I'm on the street and I'm having a hard time I think about you and I think about how no matter what happens I will always have a family (&friends) at home that will love and adore me. 
Have a great week!! 
Sister Johnson

November 4th 2013

I never want to be that missionary who preaches through my letters just cause I know that can get annoying but here are some quotes from the prophets that meant a lot to me this week.
"Brethren, discipleship is a life-long journey following our Savior. Along our metaphorical path from Bethlehem to Golgotha, we will have many opportunities to abandon our journey. At times it will seem that the path requires more than we had wished for. But as men of the priesthood, we must have the courage to follow our Redeemer, even when our cross seems too heavy to bear."
(I would also add "as women of the priesthood covenant")
--President Dieter F. Uchtdorf, "Four Titles," April 2013 General Conference (I still am waiting for last gen conf in English)
I have felt that a few times on my mission where I have been tempted to let up, or even give up, to "abandon the journey" as he put it. But we can't ever do that in our lives. Ever!! It just doesn't pay. 

"We may have to struggle to achieve our goals, but our struggles may yield as much growth as our learning. The strengths we develop in overcoming challenges will be with us in the eternities to come."
--Elder Dallin H. Oaks
This reminds me of what our branch president said in his testimony this week that we must not be sad about trials in knowing that God loves enough to try us, that He sees the potential in us so much that He would help us grow through our trials.

Okay and just one more, pretty long quote but it's the best so hang tight. 
"I am part of the fellowship of the unashamed. The dye has been cast. I have stepped over the line. The decision has been made. I am a disciple of Jesus Christ. I won't look back, let up, slow down, or be still. My past--redeemed, my present makes sense, and my future is secured. I'm finished and done with low living, small planning, smooth knees, colorless dreams, tamed visions, worldly talking, cheap giving, and dwarfed goals. I no longer need preeminence, positions, promotions, plaudits, or popularity. I don't have to be right, first, recognized, praised, regarded, or rewarded. I now live by faith, lean on His presence, walk with patience, am uplifted by prayer and labor with power. My road is narrow, my way is rough, my companions are few, my guide is reliable and my mission is clear. I cannot be bought, compromised, deterred, lured away, divided or delayed. I will not flinch in the face of sacrifice, hesitate in the presence of adversity, negotiate at the table of the enemy, ponder at the pool of popularity or meander in the maze of mediocrity. I won't give up, shut up, or let up until I have stayed up, stored up, and paid up for the cause of Christ. I must go til He comes, give til He stops me and when He returns for His own, He will have no problem recognizing me. My banner will be clear."
--President Henry B. Eyring

I'm all in. 
I entered the waters of baptism. I made temple covenants. I put on this tag. I crossed the line. 
Satan may fight for my soul but it already belongs to Christ--the Creator and Redeemer, the all-merciful, loving and all-powerful Being.
The victory is already won.
 
 
Eh, I think I realized the toughness of a mission from day 1 but it's just been a bit confusing lately when I feel like I'm becoming a better and better missionary in terms of my abilities and ability to follow the Spirit but the results I've seen have gotten less and less. And I hear everything that's going on with everyone else in the mission and it made me start to wonder if I was a dud and if I really belonged in this mission. But that was definitely Satan because I have so many signs and proof that this is exactly my mission and exactly where I'm supposed to be. So I just had to look in the mirror and say "No. No Satan, you're wrong and I will not listen to you." (refer to my patriarcal blessing if you want :) )  That's helped.
ahh thanks so much for your letter this week dad, you seriously have no idea the significance of what you said. I love you :) You know, I don't think I remember you telling me much about you mission... 
That's so cool--Bishop Fredrickson!
:)

October 28th 2013


Hey there! Sorry, I probably won't be able to send pictures in Balakova since we write at a gaming internet cafe and they don't really allow for you to download stuff. But I'll try. :) Thanks for sending me all those pictures though, it helps so much to see your faces. :) It's so crazy that Justin is back home!! I suppose Katie isn't super far behind him too huh? Well she's probably got like 5-6 months still huh. Man... and Aprils getting married! That's so exciting! He looks like a good guy. Have you met him? I can't wait to see pictures of the wedding! :) That's also so great that you got to go to the coast! Sounds like it was a nice, peaceful time. Don't talk to me about the temple though haha I can't think about it cause it hurts too much! Other than the family, I miss the temple more than anything!!
Congrats to dad for his seniority... ahhah that's funny that the worker didn't even ask... I don't think dad looks that old.:)  The Turners will be missed! It sounds like you sent them out well though. I'm glad you all are having a good time over there at home :) and that you are enjoying your callings. We have a really great ward mission leader here, he really is our best friend/co worker. He calls every night and throughout the day if he thinks of someone we could stop by or if he has an idea. He really wants to make a difference and is truly our link to the branch.
I'm so excited for halloween and the holidays!!! Only 2 months until we can skype!
I don't really have a whole lot to say about this week. It's been a mental/spiritual battle more than anything. Lot's of ups and downs and all I really want to explain is that President's letter meant a lot to me, that my efforts are not in vain, that they are counted and that I must keep going. I haven't found or taught a new investigator in about three months and in general we haven't seen any results of our work. I was letting this get to me and Satan knows exactly what buttons to push to get me into a hole of self doubt. And remembering all of the promised blessing the Lord has promised to me specifically and to the mission I was starting to wonder why we were having such a hard time. I kinda broke friday night and saturday morning. It took all of my faith just to leave the apartment and get past the thoughts running through my head. But after that time of really being rung out all I had left to do was just let it all go and give it all to the Lord. And now the fire's back, the Dachney fire. The passion and desire to shove it all back in Satan's face and kill it with kindness, love, forgiveness, obedience and complete submission to the Father. It was a hard week, but now I see that it was necessary.
My mission is so precious. Thank you! My love and appreciation for each of you grows every day.
Sister Johnson
Dear Elders and Sisters,

I have felt the Spirit in an amazing way the last couple of days, and wanted to share some things with you before I list a few of the incredible things that have been happening in the Mission. First, let me thank you for your great display of faith. So many of you are working very hard, even when immediate success does not seem to come. That is the trial of our faith--when we work hard but see few rewards. Please know that that cumulative faith and effort is having an effect on this Mission and on the people who live in this Mission. I promise that your work and effort are not in vain.

I have prayed that I might know what the Lord authorized me to say, rather than just something I might say on my own. I have felt grateful to have the Spirit verify that I was authorized to make the promises set forth below. However, before talking about those blessings, let me talk about the opposition to those blessings. Satan is working as hard as ever. Every one of you who have had lessons or baptismal dates fall through know that. While we have seen a sharp decrease in "incidents" involving missionaries (only one in the last few weeks with no injuries), Satan is working hard on us and our investigators.

I would like to ask you all to do some things to combat that. First, as you feel the effects of Satan in your own life, cast him out. If necessary, get a priesthood blessing to help you do that. Second, pray specifically for your investigators to be protected from the influences of Satan. Ask the Lord that Satan will be kept away from them. Remember specifically that "WHATSOEVER he shall ask the Father in the name of Christ it SHALL be granted unto him" (Mormon 9:21). Pray that Satan will be cast away from your investigators and the people you meet. Third, as you pray in your investigators' home, bless their home to be a place which will be protected from Satan and where the Spirit can dwell. Fourth, pray for not only your own investigators, but the investigators throughout the mission. We must unite our prayers against Satan on a constant, daily basis. Our entire Mission will be blessed as we do this. Remember the scriptural promise: "Resist the devil, and he will flee from you" (James 4:7).

As we unite our prayers and our faith in Christ, Satan's influences will be diminished, and many more blessings will occur. Many more appointments will be kept and baptisms will increase significantly. Elders, you hold the Priesthood of God. Sisters, you have been set apart as missionaries by the Priesthood. Have active faith and not just passive faith. As we continue to work hard, miracles will continue to occur in ever-increasing numbers. Also, as we all unite our faith and prayers, the above-referenced things will be done.

Please remember to keep making sacrifices! I read earlier today the following in the Lectures on Faith, written by Joseph Smith: "Let us here observe that a religion that does not require the sacrifice of all things never has power sufficient to produce the faith necessary unto life and salvation." The Prophet then added: "Those, then, who make the sacrifice, will have the testimony that their course is pleasing in the sight of God; and those who have this testimony will have faith to lay hold on eternal life, and will be enabled, through faith, to endure unto the end, and receive the crown that is laid up for them." Remember that sacrifices are EXTREMELY important.

And now for some wonderful miracles (with some profound teachings from some of your letters mixed in):

--"We had a lesson set up for an investigator. He said he was bringing a friend or two, so we agreed to meet at a cafe. We had a member join us on the lesson. When we finally arrived and sat down, there was five of us but it soon grew to 11 people as more of our investigator's friends showed up and the table next to us also was interested in the discussion. We taught the Restoration and bore our testimonies of the Book of Mormon and of modern-day prophets. We received several contacts and committed 3 to read the Book of Mormon. The spirit was there, and we hope to have follow up meetings with all of them."

--"We talked to a man about the Restoration and introduced the Book of Mormon to him. Others came and started telling him that it was all wrong, but the man stood up for us. We gave him the Restoration movie and he watched it that night. The next day he met with us and his face was lit up. He said that when he watched the movie, it all seemed right to him."

--"This last week we saw miracle after miracle. Within 2 days we went from having 0 investigators to having 3, all of which are referrals. Amazing things are starting to happen in this city and it is incredible to actually learn how to exercise faith more, implement it, and then see some of the miracles that Heavenly Father can perform. Miracles do come after the trial of our faith and we have seen that this last week, for sure."

--"We've been trying to contact a certain potential investigator who seemed very promising and we had little to no success contacting him. But one night on our way back to the apartment, some police officers stopped us and asked for our papers and we were almost back home, so it was a little frustrating. But afterwards, we started back home and ran right into our potential investigator and set up a meeting! If the police officers hadn't stopped us we would have made it home before our Potential came outside!"

--"The miracles that have been happening are incredible! And the biggest miracle of all is that we are missionaries and the Lord lets us be part of this great work! As I walk down the street with different sisters, it never gets old to say, "Sister . . . We're missionaries!" That gives us excitement to keep going because we know for sure that the Lord will bless us."

--"One day we were roaming the streets finding people to teach, when all of a sudden a former investigator walked up to us. It's been a few years since missionaries have been over, and he asked if we could stop by some time. When we stopped by, we met his father who also is very religious."

--(This one was fun for me because I got to personally witness it)! We had been out contacting for several hours without too much success. However, the Elders I was with kept talking to everyone and literally minutes before our final appointment, we approached a man who was standing by a bench. He turned out to be a Baptist who hasn't been baptized yet! He was very interested in having the missionaries come over and talk to him and his family.

--From a Zone Leader: "We get at least one call every night from the district leaders about a miracle. We set goals with them last Monday, and surpassed each goal we set. I love this work. I love miracles."

--"This week we decided to stay out until 9:30 every night. And the first night we had just been talking about desiring to give more, even when we don't have perfect faith. As we were standing there on the corner, making a decision, the neatest woman walked by and told us she would come to church. Well, one woman we met has been to church and has a friend who is a member, and wants to come to our next activity, and just every new potential we get seem to be more and more prepared."

--"President, this week has been out of control! People are talking to us everywhere they go, and last night a young woman even came up to us as she heard another woman tell us she wasn't interested. We even fasted that one of our investigators would come to sacrament. Until now, that's the only commitment he hasn't been able to keep. And you know what? He came and he watched Conference. He heard the words of our prophet and when it was over he said . . . "I feel like the Apostles and Prophet are just like my friends."

--"I am beginning to see waves of miracles and I know the tide is going to change. Yesterday at church we had two random people show up. One of the persons we have taught before and we had no way to get hold of him, but he showed up and he agreed to meet later that night. [They did and extended a baptismal challenge which he is considering]. The second man we met on the street, and he told us that he had read about some person named Moroni and he read about some "Pearl" thing. He knew about the Pearl of Great Price! At church he said he loved everything about it and he wants to come every week. Later that day, he said he hasn't put the Book of Mormon down and he set up two meetings with us!"

--"We prayed that God would give us a miracle so that we could teach someone. We did phone calls from some old potential lists, and no one wanted to talk to us. It was time to go, but I felt the impression to call the last name on the list. [She wan't home, but her daughter said she would call back]. About 20 minutes later, that lady called. She wanted to meet with us and told us she would meet that day at 3:00. We went to the church, and while we were waiting, we were searching for something in the library and found a Book of Mormon in Armenian. When the lady came, she came with two family members. Her son in law had just had a heart attack a few days ago, and they had been searching for a church that would pray for him. All of the churches had turned them away, because they are Armenian. We taught them the Restoration and related it to how they could help their family member. They were all in tears. We were able to give them a Book of Mormon in their own language because we had "happened" to find it 5 minutes before. They came to church on Sunday. One of the ladies said "This is the church where our children need to be baptized."

I wish I could list more of what you have written, but this letter is already very long. Sisters and Elders, we love you. Great things are happening. Remember to do the four things discussed above to control Satan's influences. I promise you that much greater blessings are obtainable for our Mission. I promise that baptisms will increase dramatically. As we continue to work hard, exercise our faith in Christ, and pray fervently for all of our investigators, incredible miracles will happen.

We love you all. Thank you so much for the work you are doing.

Love,
President & Sister Schwab

October 21st 2013

To answer mom's questions about Balakova... it's smaller than Walla Walla but the population is probably about the same. There's one branch of about 15 active members (there are about 100 members total). The branch president has only been a member for about 3-4 years and he and Katya are about the same age I think. They're awesome and I love the branch here even though it's pretty darn small.
It's been kind of a slow week. We have our one Nelya, other than that we're out finding. Saturday evening after a long day of searching on the streets with little success we talked with a middle-aged woman pushing her baby in a stroller. She was very kind and respectful, expressing her belief that organized religion is not necessary. I explained our church and sunday service to her and tried to express how the church organization is simply there to facilitate our communtion with God and stregthen our relationship with Him. This was hard for me to illustrate in my limited language skills. We laughed a bit at my struggling then she thanked us for the nice conversation and told us, poignantly, to "keep on studying Russian." This experience, in conjunction with many others like it, haunted me for the rest of the night, my heart weighing heavy at the thought that there was placed in my path someone willing to listen, and I was not fully capable of imparting to her "that portion that shall be meted unto every man." Then sunday morning I read this quote in the Liahona from President Kim B. Clark, "When we act in faith in Jesus to do His work, He goes with us to serve others and blesses us to say just what they need to hear... What we actually say and actually do may feel a little awkward or not very polished... But the Savior takes our words and our actions and He carries them through His Spirit unto the hearts of the people. He takes our sincere but imperfect effort and turns it into something that is just right, indeed, into something perfect." 
Into something perfect? Wow. This brouht me such great comfort that my service and sacrifice will be perfected through Him as I keep acting in faith. No matter how weak my best is, it will count and it will make a difference. We truly are doing the Lord's work, His ministry on the earth, and just as He is perfect, so is His ministry. As I act in His name by keeping His commandments and following His Spirit, He will sanctify my efforts for the benefit of His children. 
It's funny how I was there BYU-Idaho when President Clark gave this devotional, but his address means so much more to me now and has increased my understanding of what it really means to rely on the Savior and changed my view of my service.
Keep praying for me... we need your prayers in the Russia Samara Mission!! Pray for faith to perform miracles, safety and understanding and speaking the language.
Be happy! & good luck with everything you do :) I'll be prayin for ya'll too. 
Love you muchly!
Sister Johnson

October 14th 2013

Happy monday everyone! This week marks one year since I received my mission call. :) My year ago self had no idea what she was getting into.
I'll always remember when Squire was driving me down to Utah and he asked me if I was excited. He could probably tell you better what I said but I think it was something like yeah, I suppose so, I mean, it should just be like anything else I've ever done... And he just laughed, knowingly.  I had no idea what a mission included, or what it meant to be a missionary, honestly, I didn't even think about it. I just knew I had to go on a mission, so I did. Therefore, in a way, I was right. All a mission is is being obedient and working hard. It's being willing to go and do as directed by the Lord. And that's all I've really ever tried to do. But I was still dead wrong in that I didn't anticipate anything I've experienced. 
Well that's my thoughts on that. This week was really cool. We had zone training in Saratov. The President and assisstants did a special zone training as a follow up/boost from conference with President Bennett (which I think I forgot to mention is our area seventy). So we traveled by van again through the countryside passing through the towns Marks and Angles (I'm not even making that up) through fields of endless sunflower fields which were all dead sadly... but they were still beautiful! Our town, Balakova, is also near a giant nuclar plant and every monday or tuesday there is a loud alarm that goes off throughout the town. Thankfully, Sister Sigman warned me about that.
We were almost late for our bus since we had a meeting right before we were to leave on thursday with a woman we are teaching named Nelya. Sister Sigman and her previous comp here found her while dropping by potentials. Missionaries had given her husband the "Finding Faith in Christ" video a couple years ago. She had watched and said she cried. She's investigated several different christian churches and she's very spiritually in tune. This meeting on thursday we didn't get much of a lesson though because of her husband. When we came in the apartment building he was at the bottom of the stairs, heaving up a HUGE bag of potatoes up to their apartment. Sister and I grabbed the other one and despite his shouts of "no need! no need!" we hauled up the stairs. Turns out service really does soften hearts. Usually when we visit Nelya he's just around but hadn't expressed any interest but now he loves us! He kept offering us melons, tea, coffee, ice-cream and asking us questions about the Book of Mormon and why we need to pick a church if they all are christian. He's got some good concerns and he said he watched the Restoration film and liked it better than the Finding Faith in Christ. haha So we didn't really get a lesson in with her but we got him to open up so that was good. 
Another cool experience this week was attending my branch president's wedding!! :) He got married to Katya, a recent convert that Sister Sigman and Sister Kiestler (my previous companion) taught. It was held on saturday at a government building about 5 minutes from our home. Sister and I ran over there cause we were running late, but we got there just in time to dry off before they drove up in their fully decked out russian wedding style car. She wore this Barbie doll pink poofy dress and he was in a shiny silver tux. We all lined up behind giant white doors with them at the front and the small wedding party behind them. Apparently the branch president is in a band so all their friends are these euro punk rockers from the 90's. It was so funny to see them next to the elders who are glowing and lookin all sharp with their suits and hankies. Then the doors swing open to a blaring rendition of the classic wedding march "BUUUM dum, da dum dum dum da dum dum da da dum!" played by an old women in a big sweater & jeans on the violin and a middle aged man on a electric piano. We walk slowly into a large marble room with a glass ceiling, Russian crest and a velvet covered desk in the middle with a piece of paper and two pens. The official said some words, they were married and signed the papers to Elivis's "I Can't Help Falling in Love With You" or however that song is called. Then we took some pictures and that was it. Quite the experience... it was like a dream, so cool... but let's just say I'm glad they're getting married in the temple. :)
Well don't have any time left. I love you all so much!! and okay, sometimes I do miss you. I admit it. ;)
Sister Johnson

October 7th 2013

Man, let me tell you about Balakovo. It is a world of it's own. Well, it kind of reminds me of Walla Walla, except not. It's definately smaller and it's a bit more like a suberb in that many of the residents work in a big city like Saratov, Samara, or even Moscow, all of which are at least 4 hours away. There are little malls and nice "eco-friendly" grocery stores. People look like they walked out of an American Eagle catalog and have iPads and Vans. And as we walk through town I can't decide if I feel like I landed in a childrens' cartoon or a retirement home. But don't worry, it's still got it's Russian-ness, it's just not what I'm used to. Coming from Dachney I feel a bit like Bilbo Baggins coming back to the shire--a bit restless and bored, out of place. The pace here is soooo slooowww. We can walk for a half hour and see like two people elligable for conversation. I've noticed though that those people that we have talked to or have attempted to talk to are very nice. No one has said anything mean to me since I've arrived here. :) Okay, I take that back, aside from knocking no one has been mean.  
That reminds me of a cool story this week. We had just left our apartment and we ran into a lady who was very nice. You can tell when someone is really ready when they'll stay to listen even when you are saying things that make conpletely no sense. My russian was all over the place but we ended up giving her a Book of Mormon and we were explaining it to her when a man walking past sees the Book, looks at her with a cunfused/disgusted face and says "Why the heck would you want to read that?" She stood her ground and said, "Because I'm interested." Then he said "but they're a sect!" and then she really started to defend us as saying "Do you even know what a sect is? This is not a sect. We all believe in Christ and that's all that matters." I cannot tell you how happy this made me!! Us missionaries get called a sect at least once a day, normally multiple times (less so here I must say) which is like whatever, it doesn't get to me. But when she said that! Dang!! Thank you random woman on the street for defending our faith! Best moment ever.
It's gettin chilly! Honestly, I almost forgot that Russia was a cold country. Yesterday was about 40 degrees F... not too bad but seeing as it's October... I'm a bit scared. But have no fear! My comp, Sister Sigman, and I are going shopping today! I'm getting a nice big winter coat and just in time too because my zipper broke again on my navy blue one. 
A bit more on my lovely companion...Sister Sigman is from Orem, she's half navajo and super chill. We have fairly similar temperments and we both love to cook. It's going to be a fun companionship! :)
Thanks for your letters. I love you all so much. It's seems like every week I'm out I get more and more excited to get to the internet cafe so I can hear from you. :) Holidays are coming up fast! It's crazy how quickly time passes!
Loves you
Sister Johnson
 
 
What a great thing it is to be found in the Lord's service! The seasons are changing and it's getting cold, but our daily work becomes a testament that whether in cold weather or hot weather, the Gospel is constant and unchanging, and our efforts to share it with people are also constant and unchanging!"

Before sharing some wonderful miracles, I feel the need to comment on the unfortunate fact that appointments sometimes fall through--sometimes a lot of them! We cannot stop people from exercising their free agency and not meeting with us--that free agency is the very thing we fought for them and us to have in the pre-existence. I also want you to remember that it was AFTER Nephi had been rejected by most of the people and left "alone" that the Lord's voice came to him and blessed him "because thou hast done this with such unwearyingness" (Helaman 10:4-5). It was after Aaron and his brethren had been cast into prison and "suffered many things" that "the Lord began to bless them" and they brought many to the knowledge of the truth" (Alma 20: 14-17). It was not until after Alma and Amulek had been imprisoned and had horrible things happen that the Lord helped them bring many to the truth.

The same is true of us. The Lord will bless us and the work will go forward, but it is after great trials and demonstrations of our faith and consistency. DO NOT GIVE UP, and remain utterly faithful--the promised blessings will come, and the Lord will help you, as He always helps His servants. Be like Job who resolutely said "though he slay me, yet shall I trust in him!" (Job 13:15). Be like Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego who, when faced with being thrown in a fiery furnace, stated that while they hoped for deliverance, even if God chose not to deliver them, "we will not serve thy gods" (Daniel 3:17). True consecration comes with CONSISTENT AND FAITHFUL service, regardless of that has happened or may still happen.

And now a few miracles (and please keep sharing these so that others may benefit from them):

"It was raining and we decided to go knocking. Not only did the person at the domophone open up when we asked if we may share a message with them about Jesus Christ, but another door opened up with a man who has been waiting to hear our message for a long time. He was literally just waiting for us to come to him."

-All from one missionary: "A woman gave us her phone number and asked us to come by with our brief message. We ended up getting a baptismal date. An alcoholic stopped us and wants help quitting his drinking problems. One our investigators read through half the Book of Mormon in a couple of days.

-"We walked home one night and we got in front of our dom at 9:20. We decided to stay out the last few minutes even though we could have reasonably called it a night, and we met a woman who lives in our dom, speaks English, and wants us to speak at her English club. It was awesome."

-"A man came to church who said that a year ago an elder invited him to church and that he is searching for truth. He is going to read the Book of Mormon and said that he will be baptized if this is what his heart is searching for!"

"We had a man come up at the store and ask us questions about our faith. We offered him a Book of Mormon, but he turned down the offer. As we were checking out . . . he came back and asked for the Book of Mormon. It was amazing to see that the Spirit had been working inside of him, to the point of him turning back and approaching us again."

-"Last time, when we extended the commitment to pray, he said basically that he didn't see the point and probably would do it. But when we asked him, he said he had, and he'd gotten an answer, and since then, as he's been praying--with his friend too--they've seen miracles!"

-"We were contacting and decided to skip dinner so we could contact more people. We were talking to a man . . . and his friend came up to us and we told him that we were missionaries and he said that Mormons are good people and he said that he was interested [then they went over to his house, which is an amazing story by itself]. We gave him the Book of Mormon and committed him to read Alma 40 because his best friend died. He called us this morning at 5:20 in the morning and said that he had read the chapter and he wants a friend to take the lessons from us also."

"We saw a man starting to walk towards us. We stopped him and started to talk to him about the Restoration. He loved it, and stayed and talked with us for about 20 minutes in the middle of the rain with no umbrella or anything to cover himself. He took the Book of Mormon and gave us his phone number, telling us that he would love to meet again, and asked us where."

These will give you an idea of the great blessings that the Lord is willing to pour out upon us as missionaries. Keep working hard, pray for blessings, and they will come. Pray hard for your investigators. Ask God to cast Satan away from them so that they will follow through on their commitments. He will bless you as do so and pray for your investigators and the people around you.

We love you. You are a choice group of missionaries. We look forward to seeing you at this week's zone training meetings!

Love,
President and Sister Schwab

September 30th 2013

 I'm still in complete shock. Guess where I'm at now? In the middle of nowhere. I saw cows today for the first time in 9 months. And a bunch of fields and nothingness for four hours on a bumpy road in van that I'm sure got air at some point. Yep, I got transferred. They took me away from Dachney!!!!! :( Sister Kiestler and I both got transferred out! There weren't enough sisters and now there are going to be elders there. I am now in Balakovo! Which is cool but I'm just so confused and sad. I loved Dachney so much. We worked so hard and I think there will always be a little piece of me there. The only thing that consoles me in leaving is the knowledge that we did the very best we knew how and left it better that we found it. I want to always work that way--with no regrets. I'm kinda freaking out that I'm already half way through my mission, and it keeps getting faster and faster!
I don't really have much else to say this week. My experience in Dachney has just really taught me a lot in general. What I've learned from being transferred out so unexpectedly is that I need to let go of some things, even it they're good, in order to allow myself to enjoy all the other good things in life (like this cute, quaint Balakovo town). I'm like one of those raccoons in Where a Red Fern Grows who won't let the shiny thing go and ends up trapped. I'm grateful for a Heavenly Father who sees the big picture and leads me along even when I'm a little reluctant at times. 
We keep having lots of rain just about every day and it's getting coooold. I'm already in my coat, hat, gloves and boots! Autumn was pretty short and it basically already feels like winter. They say it's been an unusually cold September so sounds like I'm in for a true Russian winter!
Mom, My shoes are held up just fine. I'll be getting new flats next summer but for now it looks like it'll be boots for a good while.
Love and adore you,
Sister Johnson

Oh and I forgot to mention we had 24 hours to move! but we also got to witness a baptism in our district! It was a precious service for a young man in the other branch that we share the church building with.

Monday, September 23, 2013

September 23rd, 2013

Whew, it's been another rough week, well.. I guess I would say tiring. We've been workin hard, you can count on that. I'm so exhausted in every faculty. But it's great, I love it, and I can still work harder. We've been instructed to be out from 6-9 every evening and all day Saturday and Sunday and Sister Keistler and I have been out until 9:30 to sacrifice just a bit more. So we've been out on the streets a bit more that I'm used to. That and living on a giant hill has worn me out. We saw some really great blessings this weekend though. On Friday we had a great experience that assured us that we're doing the right thing. I was another rainy night. We had a lesson with an active member who then went out to help us with a lesson we set up from making calls. The meeting fell through though so we went out to contact. It was late, dark, raining buckets. No one was out so we circled round and walked the member back home. She told us 'go home!' We explained that we can't go back until 9:30. She said 'go home and work inside, no one is on the streets.' and then made us promise we would go back. I must repent because I made an empty promise that night I had no intention of keeping. Both Sister Kiestler and I knew there was no way we would be turning in so early but we headed in that direction just to comfort her. We pass our building and tromp along the side streets through mud and puddles with no one to talk to in sight. Nine o'clock comes around and it's still just us. Sister Kiestler umbrella-less and soaked to the bone. We stopped, looked at our watches, looked at each other, thinking the same thing. It was 9:00, technically we could go in and still be obedient. But we had made the decision in weekly planning to stay out till 9:30... in this moment though, there was still the decision to be made. We talked it out and determined that if we had already gone this far, we might as well just stick it out and test the Lord if He would really bless us for our sacrifices. We planned out a route home going down through the park. As we turned the corner and walked a ways I spotted a woman waiting underneath the eaves over a stairwell. That was our chance and I charged over and snagged it. It was a lovely conversation and she agreed to meet with us. We carried on and in the park we found another girl walking home from work. She also agreed to meet with us. By that time we were still at the bottom of the hill and had 7 minutes to race back home. We made it with not a second to spare, legs burning, clothes, hair, everything wet, a grateful heart and a grin of victory. My testimony grew that the Lord really will grant success when we show our willingness and dedication to Him.
The was the great 'up' of the week, the 'down' being that out of our 11 meeting we had set up this week, 9 of them fell through, all in a row. Let's just say I got a bit discouraged/frustrated. I'm not sure what the deal is and why people think they can just not come when like and hour ago they said they were still good to meet. Patience, forgiveness, love... yeah, I've got a lot to learn. But I'm just happy to be seeing progress in the area, even if it is small. At least we had meetings set up when before we had none. Now those people just need to come and hear what we have to say. Great things are still just around the corner.
Love you!
Sister Johnson


Dear Missionaries in a truly amazing mission!


This week has been one of amazing miracles and blessings. But before I list some of them, I need you to understand something very important. While many are experiencing miracles, some are not. We all need to understand that many of the miracles and blessings that are being experienced are the result of the CUMULATIVE effect of the faith and hard work of the entire mission. Please remember that while Ammon was experiencing the great miracles of converting Lamoni, his household and Lamoni's father, Aaron and his brethren, who were certainly as faithful as Ammon, were suffering in prison from "hunger, thirst, and all kinds of afflictions." Despite that, we are told that "nevertheless, they were patient in all their afflictions." Undoubtedly, the combined patience and faith of ALL these missionaries contributed to the miracles which others in the land received. The same will be true of our mission and the combined faith and work of all missionaries. We will share and rejoice in each other's successes, knowing that the work of the whole mission is contributing to them.

With that important preface, let me share a few of the amazing things the Lord is blessing us with. (By the way, please keep sharing miracles the Lord blesses you with. The rest of the mission needs to hear them):

-Two or three years ago, a woman was given a brochure. She has tried for two years to find our church and could not. Last Sunday, she decided that this was the last time she would look for our building. She found it and walked into church.

-A girl stopped a companionship on the street, said she already had a Book of Mormon, and wanted to be baptized

-A woman who was contacted had just prayed to God to send her help when the missionaries approached

-A man ran to catch up with missionaries who were walking down the street because he was interested--he came to church on Sunday

-Missionaries put up a signboard and immediately a woman standing behind them spoke up and said she used to meet with the missionaries and wants to be taught again with her family this time

-Missionaries were walking down the street when a man yelled from his window and asked them to come up and teach him

-A woman walked up to missionaries with her son, and said she wanted to have her son baptized

-A man came into the Branch before church started and said "I've heard of your Book of Mormon. I want to read it." He read until church started and then stayed for church.

-A 27 year old man stopped missionaries and said he had already stopped smoking and drinking. He said he wanted to be happy, and asked if he could come to church.

-Missionaries found a man sitting on a curb who said he had been praying for angels to be sent. An appointment has been made to teach

-Missionaries called a wrong number and instead of it being the investigator they thought they were calling, it was a man who had talked with missionaries before and wanted a Book of Mormon

-(I got to witness this one personally): Missionaries were contacting on a street late at night and stopped a young man. He said he really likes to watch movies about Christ, and wondered if the missionaries would be able to show him any? An appointment was made. (I wondered afterward how many young men could there be walking around the streets of Russia who like to watch movies about Christ?)

Missionaries were contacting and met a man from China. He has since watched the Restoration video in Chinese, received a Chinese Book of Mormon, and has a return appointment for tomorrow. He said when he goes back to China, he wants to teach young men he knows about the truths from the book

-And finally, I don't usually share names of missionaries because we should all be doing our work with an eye single to the glory of God. However, this one involves my wife and I'm really proud of her!! So, without her permission--Sister Schwab was at sacrament meeting today when a woman walked into the branch. She had received a brochure four months ago, put it in her purse, and thought about what it said several times. On Sunday, she took a taxi to our church and walked in. Sister Schwab and two sisters taught her a lesson and at the end, Sister Schwab felt impressed to challenge her. So, Sister Schwab gave her the baptismal challenge and the woman said "Yes, if it's true I think I would get baptized." She is being taught again at our home on Tuesday.

Believe it or not, there are many, many more, but hopefully that gives you a flavor for what is happening around our mission. Also, if it sounds like I'm repeating the same story over and over, I'm not! Many people are walking into our churches and wanting to know more!

We are being so blessed. These blessings are from the Lord and we cannot take credit for them. They are blessings from Him, plain and simple. However, those blessings are being given as a result of the consecrated efforts and sacrifices which so many missionaries are making. Please, continue to make sacrifices, work hard, and exercise your faith in Christ that we will be blessed. This is truly His work, and I promise you that we are only scratching the surface of what the Lord is willing to bless us with.

We love you and pray for our Heavenly Father's blessings to be upon you. 

Love,
President Schwab